I showed up!

I fell short of my goal by 5p last week and seem to be flailing this week. I am inexperienced at writing ‘by the seat of my pants’ and some days the words just flow easier than others. Today admittedly I got caught up in a maelstrom of a few different events. Perhaps I ought to take a moment to write them down – fodder for later but, then again--. At any rate, I’m now 123p in where I would like to be 7p ahead of that. I’m giving up expectations and saying AT LEAST I SHOWED UP FOR THE PAGE. Maybe I can catch up later, maybe not…I still have to live life, right?

“What is success, but the realistic adaptation of a goal to meet the needs of the individual while still achieving the end result?”~KMO

Falling short and getting up again...

I fell a little short of my goal last week to make it all the way to 120 pages. I still have about 15 pages to go. Last week was a really awful week so I guess allowances ought to be made. But I still feel slightly disappointed in myself for not being able to push through to the end. Thankfully, I scheduled in a few extra days for instances such as this. I hope that my muse comes through for me this coming week as our drama is not quite over. My every intention is to make it to at least 120 pages and beyond if possible this coming week.

Part of my dilemma arises from not really being sure where my plot is going next. I’m used to planning things out in detail, but I found out that more often than not I got tired of the story before I wrote it because I did too much planning. So this time, I dove right in completely unaware of where my characters were going to take me. Only problem is they seem to have been really quiet last week, perhaps because of the other things on my mind.

I’ve been searching, and not yet finding, a support group that exists for romance writers outside of RWA. First, because I cannot afford to be a member right now while my husband has been out of work due to the economic situation. And second, because I have been unimpressed by some of the decisions and bureaucracy that exists within the organization. And so I search on.

why I moved

I decided to move my blog over here because I don't have time to mess around online, frankly. I was familiar with the ease of this site from my previous blog, which now I contribute to far less, and found the wordpress site a little tedious to figure out. 1. I want to spend my time writing. 2. We live in the country--> on an old dial-up connection. 3. When I originally set up the wordpress site I was under the impression that you could only have one blog here. So, here I am! Gonna go write now.

Hello world! It's me...

After years of indecision and indirection, not to mention FEAR of the page.. and failure ...and rejection from my peers and ...well, you get the picture, I finally said to heck with it all. I’M A WRITER AND I’M GOUNG TO WRITE! Not only that, but write what I want not what other people expect or what’s trendy or what will validate my ego by demonstrating my intelligence/education etc. I’m just going to WRITE! And for me that means happy endings, sensuality, and a really good plot.

So. I don’t anticipate being here more than once/week and sometimes less. I’ll be writing for at least 4h every day, unless something important comes up i.e. a Dr’s appt, a death, a war >:]

About me: I’m 40, happily married for 22y to my Prince Charming (who provides lots of fodder), with 3 teenagers to keep me busy, when they’re home that is. Oh! I guess one is not a teen anymore! She just turned 20 last month and goes to Humbolt in the fall. Otherwise we have a would-be farm in the country, mainly raising rocks and sage brush. We do have a garden and some chickens and 2 indoor cats to keep us company.

I’m about 80 pages into my first writing project in a LONG, long time. It’s the most complex plot I’ve ever attempted but also the most fun I’ve ever written. Wish me luck! I want to have the first draft done by the end of May…