back agan!

I did a little identity crisis while I was away, plus a toothache and a few other things. But I'm back, having realized some important things:

1. I need to follow my OWN writing rhythm, not where I think others think I should be. This amounts to one scene(+1 line) a day - not so many words, etc. It may take me longer but it seems to be how I work best.
2. I'm not going to try to write anything new for a little while for 2 reasons:
a) I need to have time to polish my 3 finished manuscripts and have a life! LOL
b) I am in the process of figuring out WHY I'm avoiding writing what I really want to (what am I afraid of?)
3. I need to be concentrating on my health right now, which means limited time, resources and energy.
4. when I do publish, it will probably be self pub because I don't like to march to anyone else's drum (never have).

Sooo...ONWARD! “What is success, but the realistic adaptation of a goal to meet the needs of the individual while still achieving the end result?”~KMO

Moving on... or back as it were

I finally finished my 2nd MS in my 3 novella series. I have one more, which is actually the ‘first’ one I wrote and put under the bed cuz I didn’t like it. I’m finally feeling like I can go overhaul it but what a job it’s going to be! I keep telling myself not to be intimidated. It’ll be FUN! …And I think so, but I won’t know until I get into it this week. And I’m doing war with the procrastination monster. So wish me luck!

I’ve identified some of the problems:
There isn’t enough sexual tension and conflict, and not enough connection to keep them going- basically while the backbone is good it is BORING. When I wrote it, it was a time in my life where I was afraid of conflict and things going wrong so, while I know conflict drives story, it’s very vanilla. So I want to preserve a little bit but change a whole lot. I’m a little bit intimidated, to be honest, but excited too. My goal is to get it done in 2 months – a little ambitious for me, but I’m still going to try!

I showed up!

I fell short of my goal by 5p last week and seem to be flailing this week. I am inexperienced at writing ‘by the seat of my pants’ and some days the words just flow easier than others. Today admittedly I got caught up in a maelstrom of a few different events. Perhaps I ought to take a moment to write them down – fodder for later but, then again--. At any rate, I’m now 123p in where I would like to be 7p ahead of that. I’m giving up expectations and saying AT LEAST I SHOWED UP FOR THE PAGE. Maybe I can catch up later, maybe not…I still have to live life, right?

“What is success, but the realistic adaptation of a goal to meet the needs of the individual while still achieving the end result?”~KMO